And, to my surprise they got back to me and said they were very interested in interviewing me as I had some great qualifications. Here was an opportunity to work for a zoo! doing events and marketing -which I am as good at as any of my other dubious skills.
They asked me to fly to Eureka for an interview next week - what did I say....No...
I don't even know whats going on in my head - the cost was definitely a factor, flights were £1,500 and if I were to get the job I would have to forgo my holidays to Chicago and the Amazon. Would it all be worth it for a green card? I just don't know. I was scared I panicked and I turned down an amazing opportunity. Shit.
I feel like an idiot for turning down this opportunity but also very aware now that I need to really sit down and think about what I want. So far I have these ideas:
- I love my friends and family - Eureka is a 20 hour plane journey away - is that just too far for me?
- Whats the alternative? Staying at the university - I admit I love it here - Its summer right now and the campus is a delight, and I'm enjoying the city as much as ever.
- Would I regret it if I ended up here? yes, I think I would, I would love to come back to Bath, and and safe in the knowledge I always could. But to find myself 40 and still working at the university? I think I would regret not tyring other things
- and perhaps most importantly: Animals! I totally lose sight of this plan to work with animals sometimes.
- I wasn't prepared to spend that kind of money and give up my holidays - as I know the opportunity, especially to go to the Amazon may never come up again. So I may have turned down one opportunity but I still have these (admittedly shorter term) things to look forward to.
- I was shaken because I've really hit my stride here in Bath -and although I like to dream of these big adventures in faraway places -I'm now more aware that perhaps, I'm happy here, should I just be content with that?
- Apply for more events+marketing jobs, only the ones involved with animals - but think more about the area I'm going to, if I'd really be willing to live there.
- The Eureka job is open until filled - if it is still being advertised after my Amazon trip I will reapply
- Put some money aside for interviews in case I have to fly somewhere to do so.
- Basically stop f**king around, I've been here in Bath nearly 3 years now, and only had a handful of animal based jobs interviews.
I know what Mark Twain would say... I need to get out of my safe harbour, before I get stuck.